*~~Tuesday, March 5, 2002~~* Now it's out...I don't know what I'm feeling like. Not that bad. The hiding was far worse. I'm almost done hurting - whoa, I've done enough hurting for a whole life time. Now it's enough... no more games. No more lies. I don't want it anymore. It just hurt everyone, including me. Done, stopped, finished, ended. ^_^ eww... Doctor calls. ~gulps~ I'ma gonna ride my moped to go there. XD Lol... trees, fear me... I'M COMING!!!! *~~Sunday, March 3, 2002~~* And another of those days which plainly suck. Splitted inside - yeah, that fits. I don't know what I'm feeling, I don't know what I'm thinking, I don't know what I'm doing. My head is a mess. I guess I should just try not to think... Hm.. do I trust my head or my heart? Oh.. wait.. "My head is a mess."... I guess that that speaks for my heart. I'll just wait until it decides... Heh, they don't even know...... ~sighs~ Okay, enough about stuff no one else understands.My uncle came over again.. questioned me a lot about what I'm doing, if I'm still in school, what I plan on becoming later on... bleh - I can't help it, I had the feeling he's been staring at me all the time. :-/ I was happy when I got back in my room. Oh.. reminds me.. gotta clean up.. @_x My parents await more visitors today. Blerg.. can't they all just leave me in peace.. Nevertheless, I try to be polite to my parents - they aren't the ones making my mind a mess.. *~~Wednesday, February 27, 2002~~* Hrm.. it's been a week since I last updated... but I don't really have anything to update. :S[18:23:38] [Moonlady] Ether, what should I update. -_- [18:23:46] [zxcvnaslk] Hrm. [18:24:37] [zxcvnaslk] Dunno. o.o [18:24:45] [zxcvnaslk] Just.. stuff. :D ~updates anyway~ Sooo... my mood is rather fine, although I'm currently a bit... confused, about everything. My parents are nice lately - sucking up? I don't really know. I didn't get to hear anything about me being on the computer too much in the past week. I wonder what they want. There must be something. About Daniela.. eww. This is getting worse every day. But it would max out the limit of such an entry. :P The guy has an eye on an other girl, and is about to tell her. So Daniela is pretty much down.. and I can't help her. =/ It bites... I like helping others, and I hate being helpless. You know, situations in which you see everything going downwards, and you just can't help it.. they suck. I sometimes think exactly this is happening to me, but what should I do to prevent it? I just am not what I used to be in real life anymore. I lost a lot of popularity, I lost friends. My own fault, but now it's too late. I'll have to live with the pieces left... maybe I'll puzzle them together again.. sometime... later on...  |
| Moonlady/Mariah/Mandy Well, to a short bio. Me, usually known and referred to as Moonlady or Moony, is known as Mandy in real life. I hit the 17 years in October and I'm currently visiting the 11th grade of a Gymnasium. What? No clue what that is? No, I'm not going to a sports school, it's Germany's highest school form. Oh yes, I'm German. ^_^; *~~Name~~* Mandy *~~Nicks~~* Moonlady, Mariah, Kawaii, Suuho *~~Age~~* 17 *~~Birthday~~* October 23 *~~Hair~~* Blonde *~~Eyecolor~~* Brown *~~Height~~* 5'4'' Currents *Desktop:  *Avatars: 
*Music: Iced Earth - Melancholy *Food: PIZZA!!!! *Game: Civilization III *Movie: Lord of the Rings *Flower: Rose *Drink: Water *Season: Spring *Color: Blue *Mood:  |
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